Scheißen Sie in Ihrer Hose (Read to find the meani
Sunday. 9.12.04 9:54 am
Well, I don't know what to say today. My first entry in this thing to boot. I guess first off. If you want information about me, read my Profile. Anyways, Here goes.
I been suffering from an awful migraine week, and it finally left me yesterday afternoon. So I haven't been doing anything really this week beside my job babysitting. For the first time in my life, I am happy being single. I am accepting all of things. *blushes*
What I mean is this, this certain friend of mine (who I was once crushing on) is with a new girlfriend. It don't hurt at all now or anything. I am not forcing myself to put up a fake front or anything. *Rolls eyes* Other than that. I am just happy to be alive.
My young cousin of 29 was recently diagnosed with breast cancer, and had her surgery to remove the right breast. Anyways, this week. We found out that she had to go back to the hospital, and had just got out when I was told. I was thinking. Oh, my god. I hope it hasn't spread. To find out, she been overdoing it.
She had a bloodclot where they had a procedure at, and if she didn't have it remove. We would have lost her. My dumb cousin,instead of getting rest like the doctor order, spent her time shopping and cleaning. *rolls eyes again in emphasis* Now, she is scared which the broad should have been in the first place. We have a history of breast cancer in our family, and hers.
Our grandmother died of breast cancer over 10 years ago. It was the fast spreading kind, and both of her sisters (my two oldest aunts) have it also. This not counting the women who had it on my cousin's mom side. You would think with all of that in state. She would have got checkout.
I know this sound like I am angry with my cousin, but in reality. I am not. I am angry that she had to get breast cancer. She is like an older sister to me. ( better than the one I have but won't go into that this entry) If something happens to her, it would kill me mentality. I am completely close to my uncle's (my mom's brother) children.
They was always their for me when I was growing up. Me and one of my cousin use to spend the summer up to our aunt and uncle house. We never got along (like brother and sister not getting along) but we would be their for each other in scrap. I just can't stand to loose another member of my family. I just lost my father last year.
My father died of pancreatic cancer. He was a Vietnam Vet. He served 2 terms, and was injured in duty. He got the cancer from his exposure to Agent Orange. Yes, I am an army brat. lol I know that I am grown, but I always thought my father was immortal. He wouldn't never die, and be their to walk me down the aisle.
I am backtracking, but I guess that I needed to get all of that off my chest. *has alot of chest wink wink* lol I really don't know what else to say for now. Accept, that I am fixing to see if I can be scared the shit out of my pants. (has the cute German translation for shit in your pants but won't go their *army brat thing)
lol Heck, I am going to give it anyways. *giggles*
Scheißen Sie in Ihrer Hose. *giggle* When I was little, my dad said that so much. I was saying it. It didn't help went I went to school. I use to tell my teachers that, and they just smile and nodding. lol Anyways, that is all for now.
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